So, I have had some things going on lately that I really just want to talk about. I had an interview last Friday, it went really well. I thought all weekend that I was a shoe in for the job! Then, I got a call on Monday saying that the family decided not to send their son to that school which left me without a really great opportunity again! Then, I go to the Y and the director asks how I would like to take over her position! I say great, more hours, more money, I'm in! Well, long story short, she went to a meeting with our boss and was told that she couldn't give me her position! So, another let down! I've been getting my hopes up over and over again and I'm tired of it! I guess I just need to do what I am doing and live life! But, I am so sick of working at Kohl's and never getting to see Chris. I don't want to be there anymore but there's no way I can quit without a new job.
I am also extremely happy for every person and friend that I see is pregnant. But, I have to say that I am a little, maybe a lot jealous. Chris and I have wanted to get pregnant for so long and we really tried for about six months and then just decided to put it in God's hands. But, even though we are trying really hard to rely on God, I feel like we are being punished sometimes.
I think I am all done ranting for now. If you read my post, I'm sorry. Hope you are all having a wonderful life!
<3 you!!! miss you!! You are in my prayers and I send a long distance hug your way! I'm off work Monday and Tuesday this next week if you need to talk, otherwise just try me if you need me and I'll get back to you whenever I'm off work!! Love you!! God has a perfect plan, and sometimes He doesn't want us to know I think b/c we wont like it (regardless of the fact that we don't like the unknown either) but it is perfect and that you can bank on. In His time, as tough as it is to wait (we are right there with you in that waiting boat too btw, so not everyone is pregnant!) :D HUGS friend!!
ReplyDeleteWhen I got pregnant with Luke I was single, it was TOTALLY unplanned and somewhat unwanted, and I had many family members trying to get pregnant at that time. I felt horrible. Why would God give me a baby when I didn't want one, and not give them one when that's what they desired? He knows exactly what He is doing, even when it makes absolutely no sense to us. That's how faith is built. If I hear of any job possibilities in the Fort Wayne area I'll pass it on, but I don't know of anything right now. You just have to trust that everything will happen in His time, which is definitely something I'm still trying to learn. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Sarah and Bethany. I am also trying to learn this great lesson about God doing things on his own time. Encouragement from both of you was absolutely wonderful to hear... or read!
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